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TheSparkThatWasSpawned
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Name: Angela
Birthday: 5/27/1986
Interests: God. Ody. Reese Roper lyrics. Singing. Coffee/Barista...ing?. Love (all three). um... cheesesteaks... hot apple cider (aka fall's one redeeming quality). smells... etc.
Expertise: Feeding the ducks.
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AIM:  Ihaveamagicbag
Member Since:
2/22/2004
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| well, again, most of you know, but Kirstin asked me to post more details so here they are!:
we got engaged on July 4th (HUGE surprise, as i was really starting to give up hope). we were planning for a wedding sometime next year but unfortunately about four days later his best man (who's in the army) found out he has to go to Iraq on November 2nd so we decided, instead of waiting who knows how long until he gets back, to have it before he leaves.
i dont remember if i said in the last post but the wedding is October 24th (less than two weeks away, holy crap). very casual(I'm wearing a normal wedding dress and he's wearing a suit[i wont let him wear a tux, they're gross] but the guests are supposed to dress casually), pizza and party sub reception because we're poor... hmm i cant think of anything else... if i left out anything you want to know let me know!
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| for any of you who do not know (though its possible you all do) Ody and I are [finally] getting married on October 24th (yes, of this year).
that is all.
oh yeah... and it took me a while to figure out how to post a new entry on this new fandangled thing. funny... since that used to be xanga's primary function....
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| She could see his reasoning. Or rather, his unreasoning. He could win all he wanted, but he knew in his heart that there was always someone who could destroy him. He always knew that he had not really won, because there was Peter, undefeated champion.
"You want to beat Peter?" she asked.
"No," he answered.
"Beat the buggers. Then come home and see who notices Peter Wiggin anymore. Look him in the eye when all the world loves and reveres you. That'll be defeat in his eyes, Ender. That's how you win."
"You don't understand," he said.
"Yes I do."
"No you don't. I don't want to beat Peter."
"Then what do you want?"
"I want him to love me."
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| i moved out of my apartment on July 31st and moved in with my friend Jade who was nice enough to take me in, since i happen to be broke.
this, however, was not the original plan. the original plan was that i move back in with my parents until i could get back on my feet and/or get married.
upon telling Jade this she offered to let me live with her as she had the extra room and she herself had to move back in with her parents at one point and said its just not a desirable situation and didnt want to see me have to do that. i did not take in to consideration that the relationship between her and her mom is nothing like the relationship between me and my parents, and since i was getting cold feet about the entire big change that was about to be happening i decided that moving in with Jade would be the best idea.
ive been living with Jade for a month now, and in the beginning i assumed that with the responsibility of keeping up with rent and bills that i simply hadnt the means to keep up with lifted off my shoulders i would be feeling better in no time. quite the contrary. woke up most nights to find myself grinding my teeth and have found myself in what may be a worse emotional state than before i got out of my apartment.
and ive been feeling the increasing desire to just be settled. and ive also realized that while Jade has been amazing and i thank her so very much for taking me in, i feel like im taking advantage of her, whether i really am or not, and feel just as irresponsible as when i couldnt keep up with my bills.
i need to be able to relax. and if i move back in with my parents, at least ill be somewhere where i can stay for an indefinite amount of time in a place that i already know how to regard as home. granted it was not always cheery, nor will it always be when i move back in, but at least its stable. at least i can be settled at least temporarily. at least i can relax. at least i can be with people that i dont have to feel like im walking on eggshells because i know they put up with living with me for 19 years.
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